This week has been an emotional one, and I have pulled back quite a bit from my social obligations. I am not sure why I tend to get quiet when I am feeling really raw, but I have to honor that feeling anyway. Fortunately, the people I choose to align myself with allow me that wiggle room without letting go, giving up, or expecting more than I can give. If you are reading this, then you are automatically one of those people that I count on to be there when the smoke clears…and when the smoke rolls back in too. So Thank You!
My major gains in weight loss come every other week, so I have decided to not weight myself this week. The up/downs tend to get discouraging. I learned a bit about moderation last week, and this week I added some more forgiveness into the mix. I realized that if I am going to try to work my plan, I need to work my plan and not anyone else’s. Nothing specific is off limits, or should be off limits if you are trying to make a permanent change of course in the direction of moderation. I have always been an “all or nothing” gal, and you see how well that has worked for me.
By now I should also be halfway through my second 2 Week Challenge, but I am not. I am having more trouble with my knees and back, and although I did walk a mile on Thursday, I paid for it all weekend long. I am trying desperately to take it easy, because I have big plans that DON’T allow for this kind of headache. My trainer is frustrated, I am frustrated, but we are both showing up and doing the best we think we can do. I am using my new Body Media to track my steps and such, and I met two or three of my goals at one point or another this week. Now if only I could meet each of them consistently and daily.
On Thursday I will be off to attend my second BlissDom conference, and I cannot wait. I got a room this time so that I could have someplace to wind down, (an absolute requirement for an introvert in an extroverted world). I would absolutely love to meet up with any of you who are attending, so hit me up! At the conference I hope to fill in some blanks for a special super secret project that I am working on with my fit friend Jenny. I cannot wait to share it with you, but not until I get some of the kinks figured out. In the meantime, you can follow our Facebook for updates 
February 20, 2012 @ 5:28 am
I’m so sorry you are having a heck of a time with your body. I know it can be so freakin irritating to not have your body do what your mind wants.
I hope you have a great time at Blissdom. I’m here if you need me.
February 20, 2012 @ 2:43 pm
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. We all get that way sometimes. You’ll bouce back soon. Hope you have a great time at Blissdom. I’m around if you need me.
February 20, 2012 @ 3:42 pm
I’m an introvert in an exrovert world, too. so I understand the need to have a place to process. I’m also right there with you with the not being in the best mental place right now, so I get that too.
Have a great time at Blissdom. And I hope the smoke clears soon.
February 20, 2012 @ 4:14 pm
Ouch! I hope you get it better this week. It can be tough – I try to stay away from the scales most of the time. Best of luck
February 20, 2012 @ 5:26 pm
We’ll have to meet up during the conference! And it’s good to take some time off – to take a step back and rest at times. Only 3 more sleeps til BlissDom!! 🙂
February 20, 2012 @ 6:55 pm
Sorry you’re having a tough week! I hope you have a great time a blissdom!
February 21, 2012 @ 12:22 am
Congratulations on meeting the goals that you did meet. 🙂 Don’t be too hard on yourself. You met some of them which is better than none. Be proud of yourself for the good.
I’m an all or nothing kind of chick as well. I struggle to remember the above, so want you to remember that you should be proud of your accomplishments.
I’m proud of you for them.
I hope you have a great time at BlissDom.
February 21, 2012 @ 5:02 pm
I love you darling!!!!
March 6, 2012 @ 2:52 pm
It was nice meeting you at Blissdom. I look forward to seeing how your grow this blog. I adore the concept of cultivating well being.
PS I am following you on twitter @TinaLaneBlogs.
March 6, 2012 @ 2:52 pm
I meant “you” not “your”. Amen for typos.