What is a journey into wellness without obstacles? I am especially gifted at attracting drama and creating obstacles, and the month of May was certainly no exception. I started out the month eyeball deep in manure and the dump truck keeps dumping more in my lap. As I swim through the mess, I am trying to remember to NOT do the things that come so easily to me. I will not “push my feelings down”, I will not “check-out”, I will not “shut everyone out”, I will not “sleep the pain away”, and I will not “eat my feelings”. Ok, in reality, I have done some all of those things at various times during this particular journey. I absolutely have to face each of these issues head on while I live through some of the hardest days of my life. I have to face these realities the first time so that I can avoid re-living them over, and over, and over again. It is when life gets hard that we get to find out what we are made of, and I am still trying to figure out what that means for me. The good news is that I am not alone in this. Not only do I have a great husband, amazing friends, a skilled therapist, and many other practitioners that help me stay glued together; but I also have my faith and it is STRONG.
June 10, 2011 @ 5:13 am
I wish I could quote the sermon from church this Sunday. He talked about how suffering brings us closer to Jesus. Just writing that, I don’t really remember how it does so, but it made sense when he was preaching:) I guess the idea is that we always have hope in Jesus. For me, it has always been maintaining hope. And yes, that means you need faith too!