I wanted to make sure that I wrote my Mamavation Monday post before finalists were chosen, so as not to let the decision affect my writing, (although I most certainly will have more to say after).
This week has been a journey in
self-destruction self-discovery. I was getting stronger every day of the 2week challenge and seriously craving those workouts as well as the hazing circuits that we were being given. I was seeing results and getting along well with the feeling of being sore from head to toe. That was until I woke up in pain, and found myself unable to sit up without tears. I took myself in and discovered a couple of bulging disks. No more workouts for now!
Now, if you could flip through the pages of my story you would see that this is a pattern for me. I love to work out, but I am a klutz and have taken myself out of the gym with some of the strangest injuries on the planet. I had a stress fracture in my pelvis – 6 months, A mysterious tendon injury in my foot – 2 months, and I even had Plantar Fasciitis take me out of yoga when I was in college.
The second half of this pattern involves me quitting. I would leave the Dr. with the news, and think “screw it!” I believed that each injury was a failure, and that failure extended itself to all areas of my life. Besides, when you feel bad, you eat the foods that make you feel better and lots of it. The downward spiral begins.
This week, I cried and cried when I was told that I was benched. I was worried about the Mamavation Campaign, yes, but I was more terrified of myself. I knew where the story goes from here. The first thought was to go get a couple of Diet Sunkist. Isn’t that crazy? I didn’t think about a burger, pizza, or a great big ole cinnamon bun; it was a DIET SODA that got me choked up. Maybe that was my first sign that I have changed, but it was never a thought for long. I didn’t skip a beat. I sat and thought about where I was, and just knew that I am not going back.
If I behave and obey orders, from both the Dr. and Leah, I will be back on the fitness path within the week. Until then, I can take good care of myself, eat fewer calories, and keep my head in the game. In the next few hours, finalists for the Mamavation campaign will be chosen and voting will begin. The path before me is not in my control, but will be decided by others. However, in the end it doesn’t really matter what the outcome of the campaign are. I have the strength and expertise of my Sistahood either way. I am among some of the most selfless and deserving women, so it will be an awesome campaign to watch too. I can’t wait for the kickoff next week, good luck ladies!!!
This week’s blogging carnival had a question that spoke to me, and I just had to address it. Mamavation wants to know who is my biggest inspiration when it comes to living a healthy lifestyle. I get inspiration from many places, but my “fit friend” Jenny is one of my biggest inspirations. Although our journey often looks different, many of our issues and struggles are identical. I know that I can always rely on her to help me as a result of her own journey into health and happiness. She lost a friend to suicide this week, and together we have reflected on the times we each let depression and obesity nearly take our lives. Thankfully, Jenny and I found our way out of that darkness that took her friend, but not without scars. I have been thinking about Jenny a lot this week, and thought she may need to know how she inspires me everyday.
This post is sponsored by Mamavation – a community dedicated to obesity prevention & weight loss for women and I’m writing this to be entered into a giveaway
January 23, 2012 @ 12:24 am
I am so sorry about your injury! Definitely rest and take it easy so you can get back on it sooner than later! Going through the #hazing has been trying but yet fun when communication with all of my other Mamavation Sistas!!! Here’s to a good week and good luck!
January 23, 2012 @ 12:29 am
This back issue is just a minor bump in the road. You can get through this and we will all be here to cheer you on.
My fingers are crossed for you and the next step in your journey.
January 23, 2012 @ 2:54 am
Okay, (deep breath, sniff, wipe) Good luck to you, and if you aren’t a finalist, we’ll make you the winner of the Skinny Tisha Project! Do what the docs say, and push through when you have to-I’ve had a new round of leg pain to deal with, but I’m on too much of a roll to quit CrossFitting-so we can hobble around together the next few weeks! I love you!
January 23, 2012 @ 3:22 am
bless you, just do what the doc says, and I am sure you will be back on your feet in no time. I know it is frustrating getting hurt and not being able to do anything. I did that with my first 2 week challenge, and also the first time I did the EA active. it can definitely be frustrating! Hang in there. you are my inspiration and are awesome! you can do it! I believe in you!
January 23, 2012 @ 4:19 pm
Oh man – that really sucks for the injury, but SO glad that you are not letting it beat you. Congrats on being chosen a finalist! YAY! 🙂
January 23, 2012 @ 4:33 pm
Congratulations on being a finalist! I hope to be in on the party tonight! Best of luck to you 🙂
January 23, 2012 @ 5:58 pm
I am so sorry to hear you’re hurting! I hope you recover quickly and can get back at it! Since you’re one of the finalists, you’re going to need that back to cooperate so follow doctor’s orders! Good luck!
Lena - @elenka29
January 23, 2012 @ 6:12 pm
Injuries suck! Grr. I really hope it gets better for you this time. Have a great week
January 23, 2012 @ 6:14 pm
Hope that you recover quickly! Way to keep your head in the game and stay focused on what you want. Good luck and Congratulations on being a finalist!!
January 23, 2012 @ 8:10 pm
remember to take it easy don’t strain yourself. Keep up the good work. And congrats on being one of the finalist. Can’t wait for mamavation tv tonight. Have a great week!
January 23, 2012 @ 10:17 pm
I hope that you heal quickly. Can’t wait to see you on Mamavation TV tonight. Congrats on being a finalist.