So a nearly 300 pound woman walks into a fitness class, no really, that’s how my story began to unravel. My trainer recommended a bootcamp style fitness class for me, since she new I had previously attended something similar and enjoyed it. This time, however, I am in a different place and apparently prime for an emotional breakdown breakthough. I should not have been surprised by how quickly I ran out of breath, but I was. I was ashamed of my inability to keep up with the other, much more athletic people in my class. This triggered all kinds of buried issues that have been holding me back.
I am always really hard on myself, but I could tell I was on the verge of some really deep stuff. I found myself standing on a tight rope and if I fall to the right, I can go back to being oblivious to the seriousness of my condition. If I were to fall to the left, I would land in a pit of despair where everyone who has ever said anything negative would be there to remind me they were right. Here I stand on the tightrope that is my sanity and I am frozen with fear. I don’t even know how to take a step with awareness on my side, and what if I fall?!?!?!?
At this point, I am literally just hanging out on this tightrope. This is when I found www.Mamavation.com. A group of Moms, on the right track, a healthy track, that are a daily support to one another. Their community spoke to me in my time of need, embraced me, and gave me the extra hands I need helping me stay balanced enough to make my first step. I have some homework to do to get balanced, but I feel strong enough to get it done. Baby steps can still be steps in the right direction, right?
February 28, 2011 @ 11:43 pm
So glad you found Mamavation! It is a great group of ladies and though we are all on different legs of our fitness journey, we are here for each other to support and help as needed.
I have been on the tightrope, everyday is NOT perfect, but it is my choice how I live it. I choose to be active and try to be the best role model possible for my children. Always here if you want to tweet, kvetch or laugh… (@notimeMom)
March 1, 2011 @ 2:14 am
Thank you!!! I appreciate the welcoming words!
March 1, 2011 @ 12:25 am
I am so glad that you found us! If you need anything at all, never hesitate to holler. Usually one of us is around. I get the nearly 300 thing. That’s just where I am and I didn’t realize how bad it was until I couldn’t do a power walking dvd on easy without having to modify it. One babystep at a time, we’re taking our lives back and getting healthy. If you ever need anything, don’t hesitate to tweet at me or email me. 🙂
March 1, 2011 @ 2:12 am
Thank you for the support. You guys are AWESOME!!
March 1, 2011 @ 4:55 am
Glad you found this group. Your efforts then actions with our support and accountability can do beautiful things. For now baby steps and commitment. When you find those hard emotional times crop up experience them and get auxillary help if that is what is needed.
March 1, 2011 @ 7:20 pm
Thank you, Kia!
March 1, 2011 @ 5:25 am
Once you decide, it won’t matter if you fall. You will just get back up and catch up to where you were. If you don’t decide, you’ll just be standing on the tightrope forever. I am glad you found some support. You’ve always had it, but hopefully this is even more so you cannot deny the right choice anymore.
Love you.
March 1, 2011 @ 7:10 pm
Jenny, Of course I have always known I have your support. It’s just when you are down you don’t always know how to reach for the help. This group of women reached out of no where and grabbed me when I wasn’t even looking. I know you understand when things happen in that divine kinda way. I am getting there, but I am also working on a much deeper level than I have ever been able to get before. It is just gonna take some time.
March 1, 2011 @ 8:41 am
welcome to the group just strive toward your goals and know you have support, there are all walks of life supported in this group and ranges of experiences and expertise in all kinds of exercises.
nice to met you I’m Lorrie @cuteangel79 I’m from michigan and been in mamavation for about 2 yrs and i’m single no kids and live at home with mom for now, stlll waiting for my prince charming to show up. I like walking and my stationary bike.
good luck on your weightloss journey . you have taken the first step in the right direction
March 1, 2011 @ 7:12 pm
Nice to meet you Lorrie. I am also a Gemini and originally from Michigan, how cool. I look forward to getting to know you all better!! Thank you for the comment love!
March 2, 2011 @ 4:14 am
So glad you found us here at Mamavation! I hope you’ll find (like I did) women at all stops on this journey – some where you are… some where you want to be… some where you have been. Just remember that babysteps are the key to lasting changes. If you have any questions or need any help don’t hesitate to reach out 🙂
March 3, 2011 @ 5:26 am
SO proud of you!!!! 🙂 I am so happy to hear that you’re a part of Mamavation now, I haven’t been a long time member, but I can definitely say that being a part of this group of women for a while now has really impacted my health and weight loss goals. Having a circle of support is really unique, because there are no “corners” to get backed into when you feel guilty, and there are no “edges” to get hurt by when you’re feeling low. A true circle has no sides, no first or last, just an even balance of good, solid support 🙂 I hope I can help you in any way that I can, I’ve recently started my journey and realized that without the support, it’s really almost impossible when you’re a mom to a group of little ones. I’m a mom of 4, so I understand where you are. Believe in yourself, believe in your goals, and visualize your success every day! 🙂